Etiquette – the conduct or procedure required by good breeding or prescribed by authority to be observed in social or official life

He was struggling to get his ticket out. The creased hands shaking, although this had nothing to do with the queue of people that formed behind him.

She tapped the floor impatiently – it was 8:17 and she already was not aware of the amount of caffeine now spinning in her veins. Nonetheless, when he turned behind him with an astonished expression on his tired face, she did but smiled politely.

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Number 15

Me and coffee have the most stereotypical love relationship ever. I do love it, although it is suffered love, the one of the kind you keep on being stuck with even if it does not love you back.

What does that mean? That I need it. My body calls for it; even if I am already shacking and my blood veins are shrinking themselves down to almost disappear, it needs just a drowsy face to my brain to believe that yes, I need more caffeine, no matter if I will end up feeling I am having heart attack for good 30 seconds – I will feel great anyhow afterwards for having survived.

I crave it. Better say I used to crave it so much that now I don’t want to let it go anymore. I do remember vacations in Calabria calling watermelon with funny names and expecting it to appear anyway on my plate; and then asking for cappuccino, getting extremely pissed off when my mother winked at the waiter whispering “Just a drop of coffee, please”. I must have been 7 years old and being in my latency stage, and so reclaiming things that I didn’t know – maybe I didn’t – that would do me no good.

It’s my reassurance. Part of a routine, so to say. Waking up zombie like in the morning and knowing that it is there – until my neurons are fast enough to make me remember where to find the yellow packet and my arms strong enough to unlock the coffee machine. Embracing me every single day, no matter how bad, sad, mean, I have been the day before, it keeps all the things the same – fire-brown liquid-cup-throat.

It is part of a routine then, that I try to shake, rekindle. For example, sometimes I only go for black coffee. Other times I disguise it with a drop of cream milk – yes, I do live in a northern European country – other times I shock it with the surprisingly good combination – works properly only if the coffee is superhot– of honey, certain periods I like to create a sandy-like bottom layer of – preferably – brown sugar in the cup. Shakes resembling a frustrated wife buying naughty underwear in the expensive shop to surprise her partner at night.

So yes, me and coffee have the silliest, most stereotypical relationship ever. My mom used to tell me about relationships, “The most important thing is that you like him and that he makes you feel good”. And I am over there, I guess.

Number 8

A pink hole, a worm
it tells you where to kiss
it points you the gallantry
When was the last time you got lost?
Where were you?

It is the hole on my hand
that makes the harvest slides
and I think about the future,
I won’t face it today
today there is only the citrus on the lips
there is only a house, a cloud
Wait!
The box open
there come out
a Chimera
a butterfly
it bothers you when it lays on your nose
Don’t you realize that you are an insect as well?
That it is a human being?

Teach me again how to conduct my life
give me more scars on my arms
give me psychiatric drugs and alcool and coffee
without which
the afternoon doesn’t happen
Will you come tomorrow?
If I’m asking you
it’s because my ego has to be feeded
What did you expect?
We are social animals
It is about being social animals.